rant about life

LIFE

Does it ever feel like life is just there to suffocate you? I love my husband, and my two boys! But my family is having all sorts of problems right now! It seems we cant go a day with out a reminder that, neither my husband or I have a job, that my husband quit a stable income to go to school! I AM BEHIND HIM 100%, but at the moment it feels like life is just trying to suffocate our family out! My husband is getting depressed, and I cant keep my at home business going!

When I married my husband, I gave up a lot. My chance to finish high school, and attached to that, my chance at an individual future. I also gave him my entire self. When I announced to my step mom, Tammy, that we were getting married she told me something I wish that I never forgot. She said, "Never forget who you are, as an individual. Take care of yourself before each other, because if you don't you will become one person, and that is when the problems start."

She is right, and I forgot to take care of my self too. I don't mind having financial difficulties, fore this is not new to my life style. I have never been 'well off' but I am having a hard time having to ask for the help we need! Growing up, I was thought that asking for help was showing weakness. So now, I have to talk my self into asking for help when I should just be able to.